A blogging journey.

Summer 2010

I had just graduated high school and was happy to being writing in the blogging world. I wanted to show my life in Portland to all of my friends and family back home in Utah. Somehow I didn't feel as though I was the best writer or blogger so it rarely happened. Which was unfortunate because I learned so much about myself in an incredible city at that time. I was adventurous and a little rebellious. (Mariah...rebellious?)

Summer 2011

This is when I started my 6 month journey to Mexico. My plan of course was to begin blogging about my stories and adventures from Mexico, which I achieved. However, I found so much more in blogging. I felt as though I knew people still cared about the person I really was, how I was thinking, feeling, and doing. Even though I was in a different country. Being in Mexico I had my parents, Volunteer co-workers, family friends, and my 3 year old best friend, Mason. It was rather difficult for me to make friends of my own age because one) I didn't speak Spanish & two) I'm incredibly shy when it comes to people of my own age.
I wanted to express all I was.
I hit 27 blog posts in the month of October and high score of 28 in November & December.


January 2012

I was back in St. George, Utah getting ready for my move in March.
I found a guy. A guy I really fell in love with. Which I'm sure you all know about from my blogging.
Not only did I want to blog about life all the time but I wanted to blog about him and us together.
I was happy and in love.

I even recall starting a Fancy Friday which helped me stay connected to blogging each week.

March 2012
This is when I made my move to Denver, Colorado to start school.
Even though I loved my new school, the program, and instructors....it was taking me awhile to get used to Denver and make friends here. Maybe because I didn't already have a friend to meet new friends with...I was the new girl...I was in a long distance relationship?
So, I kept blogging. Finding that connection with other people in other areas. I started to craft more and go on many walks. I was happy and content. I didn't have a job and I was alright doing things on my own and focusing on getting the best grades possible, and on my long distance relationship.

Beginning of 2013

This is when my blogging life was beginning to roll down a hill.
The funny thing when I look back is that my blogging really stopped once I got my job at the front desk of student housing in April. I was finding my motivation in other places then blogging, I was making friends and meeting new people.

In the summer I started my second job and I had full time classes.
I quit my 2nd job and started an internship instead.
I was thought about blogging on my free time but found my free time do other things....like sleeping.

I think I got to the point in my life where I wanted friends around, I wanted to go out, have fun, and meet more people again.

The biggest parts of why I stopped blogging

1) I felt as though it was becoming a popularity contest in the blogging world. Who has the best relationship, who has the cutest baby, etc. etc. etc.
2) I was selfish and wanted to keep all of my creative thoughts and ideas to myself.
3) My relationship was coming to an end...and ended. I honestly never wanted to go through the entire spill to the world as to why my almost 2 year long, long distance relationship ended. For the most part because I made everything seem perfect and everyone was rooting for us. & this was something I never even put on facebook, I kept it to myself. I wanted to avoid questions.


To be quite honest I got fed up with everyone knowing everything about me and my life.
I needed a step back.

It's 2014
I have an amazing new group of friends.
I am in Portfolio classes at AIC. (Graduate in September!)
& I am now one of the Resident Assistants at student housing which I love so much. It has honestly been one of the greatest blessings.

I still love my coffee, mornings, adventures, and creativity.
I'm just single now and trying to find who I really am again.
I still have my feelings, emotions. I'm still crafty, creative, and carry my camera like it's my baby. I just keep a lot of it to myself now.

Life is weird. My heart has been thrown in so many directions in the past few months.
I'm happy though and I'm finding my way.


I told myself that 2014 would be different, better, and wonderful. (& it has been amazing so far!) I wanted to start blogging again but haven't found the inspiration to yet. So here I am on a Sunday morning at 6am with my coffee. My thoughts are high and I'm ready to talk.
I want to start blogging again but in my way. No more comparing myself to other bloggers and trying to blog like all the rest to reach that certain number of followers.
This is a big time in my life and I want to show my successes and even my failures.
My thoughts have been so scattered lately that my focus has been off the walls and I don't know where to start or how to start. I believe if I start blogging again I can really find that focus as to what I really want again.

So here I am...again,
I'm not married, I'm not in a relationship, no kids, not even a fish.
It's just me.
& I'm ready to be who I am completely.